Sorry that you have not heard anything about me for a while. I have been changing my whole life upside down. I have slowly started my social transition and get professional help to support finding my true self and my lost self confidence. What i have learned so far is that sometimes people have to just stop and think about their self. I stopped and realized one shocking thing, i was not living this life for myself. I was just doing things that society want's me to do, not the things i really want to do. Yes there is always people around you who will always say that you are not gone make it, or you gone fail no matter what you are doing. These people was giving me a hard time to move forward as a proud transgender woman. I am still fighting with these thoughts but i just don't care anymore. I wan't to live my life just the way that feels good for me. If somebody does not accept me that person is not right for being part of my life.
Sounds really simple right?
It's not simple, when you have to stop and really start think what you really wan't for your life and what not, it can be devastating like it was for me. It hit me in the face that i have lied to myself and just done things for everybody else rather than myself. But when i started doing things that i really love everything changed, now days i am more positive and i am more open minded. One day i was finding myself in online make-up course and i was exited to do that. My wife has also noticed the positive changes in behavior what comes to how i handle my emotions and specially showing my emotions. In past i kept all my emotions inside and tried to bury them on alcohol bottle, this caused lots of troubles for your relationship with my wife.
In next post i will tell you more, stay tuned!
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