I think i have really found the most important thing in my life myself. In past i was chasing material and money but now i realized that i was just running away for myself. I did not wan't face myself as transgender woman. Don't get wrong i still wan't to go forward in my career but now i am doing it for right reasons. Now i have started really enjoy my time off from work and not feel all the time stressed and depressed. I decided to be me, it was tough but reward for doing it is life chancing.
Yes there is and will be people who i am gone loose from my life being me but i don't care!
Yes somebody will keep me weird because of my way of living life!
Yes people will stare and some of them even judge me when i am at public places as transgender woman, i just don't care anymore!
Key for just not to care for me was to understand why people are behaving like this. They are jealous for you being so brave that you do things differently, because they don't have the courage probably do something they would really like to do for their life. Part of human nature is being on the group and to become accepted as part of the group. So if you are brave and do your own thing the group tries their best to grab you back in group. This is my theory why some people are attacking against LGBTQ people on internet and even physically they just try to repress you as part of the group. Yes it's not right and but for me it's easier to handle it because of i know why people are acting like idiots. Most biggest thing was to understand that there is nothing wrong for me living my life as transgender woman and its not my fault that people are behaving like idiots, its part of their nature behavior.
I have noticed same pattern when my friend started a small business, everybody around was trying to repress her and started to paint horrible pictures about bankruptcy. She nearly canceled her plans about own business because of other people repress. So my advice is to follow your heart and do what you love! Live your own live, do your mistakes. I am almost 100% sure that some of the people you have lost from your life are trying to sneak back in to your life when they notice how happy you are!
This is the reason why i don't care anymore what other people think how i live my life!
Do you, Be you and Love yourself you deserve only the best!

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