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It don't know am i little bit stupid or what? But it took me almost sixteen years to figure out that being woman is not just what you look outside. When i figured this out my i knew what i wan't to do. I was almost 100% sure that i accepted my trans side but i was not. To able to love yourself you have to be happy in both genders male & female or if you are transsexual start the process. When i looked myself guy-mode from the mirror, i hated what i see. I have gained some weight in couple years and everything was looking so bad. I almost started to cry, it felt so bad. My dream is to live in both genders and enjoy my life but it seemed impossible. 

I got depressed badly for couple weeks, then i started to search from Google some tips how to love yourself. I found really good podcasts and guides, I got excited. I started look what i was eating and do some walking and working out. I also started to take care of my facial skin and after shower body lotion. After a month of doing this, i was front of the mirror spreading body lotion it hit me. I was losing weight and i started to see minor changes in positive direction. I was saying to myself first time in years that i look good. It was liberating moment, it gave me huge boost keep doing things for myself. I also started to invest money for myself, i work my ass off to get that money so i deserve some reward for doing that. Whole life i have been thinking only other people and their well being but not my own. I have helped people so much but when i needed help for myself there was zero people to help me. So i get rid off these toxic people from my life. I started to be queen of my own life and respect myself more. My partner has also noticed the change in me and she say to me please don't give up i like new you. 

One big moment was when i was going work-out without make-up in girl-mode and after that i went to local beach enjoy my day. I felt so good and almost like whole world was hugging me. I understand finally that when you are feeling good about yourself without wearing tons of make-up and accept yourself just the way you are big changes are going to happen. You can see my beard shadow but i don't care, i feel happy and confident. Hopefully you are getting what i am trying to tell here.



Love yourself and take a good care of yourself!


Currently i am trying to get rid off the negative thinking and be more open to discover new things in life. I can say that i have not done things that i really wan't because example things are too feminine. Also i wan't to learn to get touch of my soft side and express my feelings more openly. I have a feeling that when this project goes further my insecurity going out as girl-mode will go away. I will write later update how my project is moving forward.
 


I have few questions for you to ask yourself:


When you have done something for yourself?

When you look at the mirror are you happy what you see?

Do you respect yourself?



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