Janinastylish - Life as transgender woman

  I have been dreaming about taking my wife to date as girl. Yesterday my dream come true and we had a date and can't remember the last when i have been smiling that much. I feel little bit guilty when i am writing this down, because i know that there is lot of people who can't have date night with their wife. But think this as a inspirational story that out there is Cis-womans who accept you just a way you are. Yesterday when i woke up i was feeling so nervous and excited about the date night. Night before my wife did my nails ready and next day i forget that she done them. I had go visit at local grocery store and i went there in guy mode with finger nails painted in red color. I noticed my nails when i started to pay and i almost started to laugh. But this was good example that if you act normally and example not try to hide anything people are not even notice you. I was choosing the most sexy red dress and pair of black pantyhose. When i looked myself in the mirror i was r...

Sorry about the F-word in the topic, but that how it feels when it hits me. If i try to describe my feelings when dysphoria hits me to Cis person they just don't get it. First words are it gets better by time or try to think something else. When i try to explain to that only way to get trough this is that i am able to express myself and feel myself pretty. My wife understands me almost 100% at time but other people just think that it is my choice that i want to feel myself pretty woman when i wan't to.  Some reason when dysphoria hits me it's messing my whole life upside down, i just can't think anything else. Imagine yourself in example middle of really important meeting and you are not able to focus that, you are just thinking what dysphoria brings your mind and when this is going to end. I am lucky that i am always able to focus on my work 100% even in middle of dysphoria attack. It's feels so unfair when somebody comes to tell you that you have chosen this path ...

  It don't know am i little bit stupid or what? But it took me almost sixteen years to figure out that being woman is not just what you look outside. When i figured this out my i knew what i wan't to do. I was almost 100% sure that i accepted my trans side but i was not. To able to love yourself you have to be happy in both genders male & female or if you are transsexual start the process. When i looked myself guy-mode from the mirror, i hated what i see. I have gained some weight in couple years and everything was looking so bad. I almost started to cry, it felt so bad. My dream is to live in both genders and enjoy my life but it seemed impossible.  I got depressed badly for couple weeks, then i started to search from Google some tips how to love yourself. I found really good podcasts and guides, I got excited. I started look what i was eating and do some walking and working out. I also started to take care of my facial skin and after shower body lotion. After a mont...

I really admire strong and confident woman and specially trans people who are so sure about by them self's. There is nothing more sexier than confident woman. Unfortunately i am not one of those girls, when i am on guy-mode i don't have any issues leaving from front door, but immediately when i put the girl-mode on my self-esteem vanish away. I would like to show the world who i am and be proud of it but this is not a piece of cake for me. I always look myself in the mirror before trying to leave from the front door and i always find something that i am not happy with and if it's really hard day i just think "You look like man in a dress, you can't go out". Then normally i give up to this thought and don't leave from the house, i know it's a stupid thing to do but i don't want to force myself something that makes me feel uncomfortable.   Sometimes everything goes so well, that i basically leave from front door and go example mall or grocery store w...